I can’t even begin to explain how disappointed I truly am in people sometimes. I don’t know why I even bother to get my hopes up. I try to see the good in people. Though, it’s often a pretty empty tank. Sometimes, A few simple questions will either make us, or break us. Over time, I have learned how to avoid certain kinds of people. I guess you could just call me an expert at it. I found that intuition mixed with knowledge will go a long long way. Then again, even an expert has a tendency to question themselves.
Honestly, I am exhausted. I spent the past week wasting every single ounce of my time, on every single thing I have been trying to do. You know the old saying, “You can lead a horse to water, but you cant make them drink” Yeah, so true. I guess no matter how great I become, or how many things I do, or what try to fix. The world is a very very broken place. I find some of the most talented people struggling with some of the stupidest shit. Most of them are too blind to realize who the fuck they are even in the room with.
I try to be a friend to everyone, but it’s unbelievable what I get in return. I am not trying to complain, but the next time I try to meet someone. I will gladly tell them to go fuck themselves. After all, they’re probably doing it anyways. I wish I could be here wishing everyone a Merry Christmas, but there’s nothing merry about it. Holidays were always a problem in my family. Friends only put me in bad situations, and women.. Well.. listen to my music. Now, I am not trying to be Uncle Scrooge, but people generally piss me off. Where did all the good ones go?
I do know one thing though. People they come and go. All I can say is that I feel like leaving on a jet plane. Dont know when ill be back again. I am kind of tired of a lot of shit. Including my desire to work with other artists. I think it’s amazing how talented people can be in music, but how shady and untrustworthy they can be at everything else. Fuck it. Who am I to speak? All I know is one thing. I am not interested in anyone or anything. Now fuck off. You’re dismissed. I will write something new next time I am in a better mood.