Back on track
Every time I watch an album of mine start appearing in the “mainstream” I cant help but feel like I am just sticking it to every single person who didn’t think I would ever get there. As I watch “Darkness” appear on Amazon, Pandora, Google play and more. I can’t help but feel grateful. Music has taken me on such a journey. I have no regrets. This is the 7th album I put out. However, it’s the 4th one that I will actually keep out there.
I spent my whole life being treated like I never had my shit together. When I look at my life now. I realize that it couldn’t be further from the truth. The truth is, my own parents cant get their shit together. (Sorry guys, I have to call you out on this one.) They are in their 60’s going through a divorce. I mean really, what’s the point? I guess people don’t see themselves age. I was always getting blamed for things I never did wrong. Still to this day, I get criticized for being “King Craig James.” They sip their wine, and beer, and call me “crazy.” I wish them both luck in their two year long court battle. They are both fighting over the same thing they always fought about. Money. Some of you might be thinking.. Why did I call out my Dad and not my Mom on the album? While they’re both just as guilty, My mom was always the one who (at least try) to make things right.
I never had much to work with. I made due with what I had. When I wasn’t making money, I had the generous support of my friends, lovers, and the few fans I connected with. I do what I have to do to get by. If it means hosting Amazon ADS, and pushing products for Jeff Bezos.. So be it. This rockstar life is not always fun and games. In fact, it’s more work than just going in and punching a clock. For the most part, you must go in and punch a clock just to make ends meet anyway. I don’t think real artists get into it to make a fortune. I think we do what we do because we love music, go through shit, and want to connect with others.
I am very happy that I finally decided to release this album. Do I wish it was longer? Yeah. However, I am no longer interested in putting music out there just to do it. If I wanted to do that, I would have 3 or 4 more albums in stores. I would have also had the songs with Lyvvi on there. Besides, I hope that this “Darkness” in my life only lives to see 5 tracks. So what is the mood of this album? I would expect some tears in the first 4 songs, and some laughter (hopefully) in the last one. I know one thing is for sure, I am becoming a huge fan of my own work. Are you?